There are people in our lives that we connect with, no matter the history and the harsh words, we will always be able to connect with them, to share something special. we may shut them out for a time and the may say hateful words but we both keep running back for a reason. At first i thought that the love was still there but in the end i understand you and you understand me. And it may always be that way. I dont want to lose you because i can talk to you.

Change is what gets me through the day. the possibility that tomorrow might bring my true inspiration, my soul mate, my future.

love happens. true lovce happens. i gave up on fairytale love and i found something so much more real. something that wakes me up and makes me feel alive and free. i dont have to wonder if “he’s the one” i already know. it just is. - Isnt that what life’s about? Giving up on perfection and finding beauty in the flaws. living for the moment understanding that life is not about staying tall but rather falling down and getting up a stronger person. breaking molds and doing whats right for you. what makes you happy - taking chances , leaving room for error.

Let’s face it - life’s a bitch, but that’s what makes it fun. We all fall down and lifes all about getting back up. Its not about deserving anything or being entitled to anything. Life is about getting up and earning what you want, going for it and having a hell of a time along the way. If you never learn to live in the moment you never really learn at all. If you think you are the only person whose life is in the shitter, your heavily mistaken. And you never know , maybe one day you’ll wake up and see the beauty in the mess.

Someone once told me that he did not believe in God and I am no person to judge so I simply began to ask a few questions. Why can we feel? Why do we need love? and his answers were of course the mere fact that our brains are bigger. But isn’t this food for thought? We are far more intellegent then the other species that exist around us. Doesn’t there have to be an explination for our being. Something greater then us that guides us and perhaps gives us longings and passions. The ability to love not just fulfill biological needs. Some say God was created to give us hope and to distract society from the harsh “truth.” We will never know if God truly exists until it’s to late, but with out him, without something greater what are we?

why does it seem that whenever we get what we want, its not enough or its not right? i completely grasp the fact that i will never be fulfilled with my life, i’m a dreamer , i always see more potential and an adventure in finding it. i will always push my boundaries until new frontiers are discovered, i refuse to settle with who i am, i want knowledge, understanding and wisdom and i am willing to go to the edges of the earth to find these things, but yet i long for the smallest fragment of completeness when i fall in love. i have joy and contentness but just the smallest ounce of being whole and for one second i would love to be able to wrap my head around my feelings and emotions

I know I’ve said this before, I’m born and raised Catholic, its all engraved in my head,  I have  thought to question what is being taught but never really searched for answers. Today I was sitting in church and i cam to the revelation that there is something out there, something greater then me , something that created me and that more then likely will evetually judge me. I’ve questioned and argued with teachers in theology, but I have never gone out and searched for the truth. I dont know where to start, but I know i want to find God. Sitting in church today I realized that whoever he is and where ever he is from I want to know and love him. I’m 17, i love to party and I like boys I dont want to live a sheltered life but I would be naive to ignore his existence, I see beauty in all things and I have to acknowledge that God created it. I do not want to automatically fall into some holy sterotype… I simply just want to know God, one on one.

astoryforevertold asked: I love your blog! I read everything you have written, and I think you should write more often (:

thanks, i love to write and i should more often. i never really think about my followers i write for me and it makes me extremely happy that someone can relate! I will try to write more, thanks so much!

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